Late at night

So I have been having problems sleeping, too much to do in my days, and not enough hours. I have started writing out things to help calm my mind, and hopefully get to sleep at an early time than what has been recently. This weekend was jammed full of things to do and next weekend also, so hopefully the weekend after that I can do a bit of relaxing after work instead. Tony this past weekend really stepped up his motivation and helped with cleaning around the house, I was completely surprised and very happy. Since he has hurt his back doing chores has been, well a chore, so I don't ask him to much of anything because he works so much. But of course the house kind of falls into looking like a pigsty and not having a dishwasher does not help our cause, dishes to clean by hand takes so long and can be quite tiring. So my hats off to all my family members who cleaned dishes by hand until the dawn of the dishwasher, how you did it every day is beyond me. (See statement before referring to tiring) So on to this next weekend, my brother and my niece are coming up for a visit. I have not seen my brother for years, and my niece I have never met, so this will be one fun filled adventure for me!! I really find that I am attracted more and more to the children. I guess my maternal clock is starting to tick, so I guess I shall have to deal and hit snooze for a bit of time, so that we can get settled a bit better than we are now. Baby+ car problems+ credit card debt+ school= a world of a headache for me, well and Tony too. I did figure out the best name for a girl and it has parts of both of our father's names in it...Joselyn Andrea. I was having a bad day, and driving to work this kind of just popped into my head, and it has been Tony-approved so that is even more exciting! Well for when we have a child, that name will be there for a girl (which Tony is positive we won't have). So I am finally getting a bit droopy-eyed and I think I can call it a night.

July

Another month passed by so quickly. So I am now officially 24, YIKES!! I feel like I have really done nothing in the years that I have lived. I mean I am still in school, still working at a job that has nothing to do with my field of learning, still have so much debt to pay off, still lazy. I thought when I would hit this age I would have degree or at least be working towards finishing a medical degree and I am nowhere close for that, which is just something I am not happy about, but I did do it to myself. And the job, what can I say, I am not going into retail so to me I feel like I am just playing at work. The credit card debt, ugh, that seems never ending. I work all these hours, and my money goes into just paying a bit down on the credit cards, where it all goes I have no clue, I am not really managing our money that much, I get to frustrated with it all. Oh yeah that laziness haha yeah I don't even feel like doing anything about that, just too tired from work and school and I just don't to clean or study some days, like now...I am wasting time on here, when there is clothing to be put away, clothing to fold, weeds I could go pull, exercising that needs to be done...I just don't know. I guess I am just hitting a rut in the road which hopefully I can fill in and get over soon.