Another Sunday

So I finally get back to having Sundays off. I made some shrimp gumbo and shrimp beignets with Amy's Mom which was just a nice and relaxing and yummy!! I just find having a day off to do what I please really just relaxes me even if I am still doing things during the day. I feel like I am in charge of my own day instead of school/work work/school and so on. So today I am doing schoolwork yes, but I can do it slowly take my time on it, and do chores around the house and still have fun with friends. For instance I was up early this morning but it wasn't a rushed morning, Tony and I had breakfast then I got dressed and went and got some ingredients for out shrimpy feast and then went and cooked...ate some then came home switched over laundry and still have plenty of time to good around and get hw finished then head off to a sorority pledging event. Then I will come home and finish up homework and then watch Emma tonight. To me a relaxing day. I didn't have to race awake and run around to get ready for work or school and I wasn't knocked out with a headache and I will also get some time to work out which should hopefully help prevent the migraines and headaches that have been plaguing me recently. So all in all a pretty good day for me!!

Mr WSU and things

So I just got back from being a judge at Mr WSU and I realized that those who were friends when I was an active DZ are not really much of anything to me anymore. I dont' care for people who ignore me and are too busy for me when before they seemed so friendly. I mean I know I act like an old lady somewhat but when you run in a million directions sometimes just a lunch date is all I have energy for doing. I miss acting young sometimes or more or less going out...but it just doesn't fit into my schedule and really I dont' have the energy to do things like that anymore. I have been fighting constant headaches and well staying out late partying/drinking just doesn't appeal. It is just disheartening to realize that not everyone you once enjoyed hanging out with really want to hang out with you anymore because your life went one way and theirs another. I feel like I grew up and they still want to live our their youth. Oh well that is really all I have to say on that issue.

Another day

So it is only 915pm and Tony is fast asleep and I am wide awake. I am taking a small break from working on a French presentation. I feel like I don't have enough time in my day to relax, clean, and work on schoolwork. I am so tired from working (standing on concrete) that I feel like I want to relax more than I really should since I am taking a full load of classes. I don't really know what to do I feel myself slacking but I have no motivation to fix this problem. I may just need to drink coffee to get through this quarter or maybe with a job change that may be occurring soon I can have some more time to relax but also stay on top of my schoolwork.

2009/2010

I never really make many resolutions only because most of them are self improvements that I am not ready to complete. But this year I have just a few in mind that I do want to keep.
1. work on my understanding and speaking/writing of French (it is my major after all) J'espere que je ameliorais mon francais!
2. work on my temper
3. work out, I found out that I have arthritis in my knee on top of a deteriorating patella

That is really all I want to work on this year. Set a few goals and achieve them, that will be a feat for me.
So here's looking to 2010!!

Christmas

The end of Christmas for this year has come. All in all it was a pretty good one. Nice presents lots of family time, but I still felt like something was lacking. I feel like sometimes you just go through the motions in life so no one can see the underlying pain. This year went by and I feel a huge feeling of loss. I shouldn't because I have many family members still alive and I am able to talk to and see, but the 3 people I have lost were some of the top 3 people a person could lose in life and with last year's passing of my Grandfather I feel these deaths more deeply than I did before. I feel like I lost a part of myself that I can never get back. My Mother and my maternal grandparents were very important in my life and it has been a haze since they have passed, especially with my Grandfather's passing. No matter how many years go by I will miss them and feel a part of me is not complete. I never got the chance to fully live out that relationship I was supposed to have with them. I feel as if life cheated me that chance to fulfill those relationships and connections.

Another holiday season

Yet another holiday season goes by and I hate working retail! You really see the true colors of people when you work retail during Christmas. No manners, disgusting habits and just an utter contempt with society. Christmas presents should be quality not quantity or dollar amount. You are supposed to convey your feelings for that person with a heartfelt gift not the most expensive gift. This year I have spent very little on gifts but each of those gifts is something I know that person will enjoy, and will hopefully think fondly of me when they use/watch/read their gifts. I worked Black Friday yet again this year, and the stupidity of people amazes me sometimes. For instance, when an item is a "special buy" and is only being offered until all quantities are sold out don't ask for rainchecks because once we are sold out of the item we are sold out hence why they were a "special buy" and dont come 3 days later asking if that item is still in stock or has a raincheck available...it was a Black Friday special deal! Ugh, shoppers!

Time

It never ceases to amaze me how fast time goes by when you are busy. The quarter is almost over and yet it seems like just yesterday it had begun. I can't wait for a month off from school to just focus on work and household things. For example I can keep up on laundry and having it folded and put away, or the kitchen can be fully clean for once including the dining room table! I look forward to these because it makes me feel like a better wife. Being so busy during the school year these things fall to wayside. This year I am looking forward to Christmas because we will actually have our own tree!! I can't wait, I can now hang up our few ornaments we have received..which is quite exciting! It is kind of weird that it has been almost a full year that my Grandfather has been dead now, I still have his numbers in my phone even though if I were to call them someone else would probably have those numbers. I look forward to another holiday season but also dread them because a lot of heartache come with them going through them without some of the people I have loved the most in my life. I think maybe this December I will hang up all the pictures and posters to complete the house so that it seems like people actually live in the house and care! I guess that is all I wanted to post today.